unpacking the suitcase.

so, i moved into my new apartment this afternoon. it's right in downtown ilsan, in the middle of all the stuff that goes on. it's just a little studio. like, really really little, but i think it will do. i'll post pictures once i feel proud of the nesting job i've done...

it's sunday night, and i'm sitting here alone in my new apartment and i feel just that: alone. my tv is broken, the mic on my computer is broken so i can't call anyone, and i'm just sitting here feeling sort of, well, all by myself in a different country. i start my first full week of teaching tomorrow, and i'll actually be doing everything now b/c the teacher i'm replacing left today. it's a bit daunting but i think it will be good. the school seems cool.

it's pretty weird just sitting here in an apartment that feels like a stranger to me. i kind of feel like me and the apartment are both unsure about each. the apartment is going through withdrawl with the other teacher leaving, and is looking at me, with skeptical eyes, not sure if we're going to get along. and i'm sitting here, wishing the apartment would just accept me with open arms and embrace me as its new inhabitant so we can become good friends and not go through this awkward "getting-to-know-you" phase.

for now months now, i haven't lived in a place where i know i'm staying for 9 months, and it's almost hard to get used to the idea of staying in one place for awhile. i've gotten used to coming and then going soon after. the other night, i nearly grabbed my suitcase, walked out the door, headed to the airport, and bought a plane ticket back to england so i could atleast just be with ali again and not have to get used to the weird korean smells and drunk-on-soju korean men yelling outside my window. those things seem like a good idea at 4 in the morning when you can't sleep.

but my apartment and i will get used to each other, and as my dad always says: "the sun will come up tomorrow." and: "be tough." and: "sit down shut up and enjoy the ride." (maybe that doesn't really apply to this though. or maybe it does...)